Pots? The converts won’t use the same pots or utensils that I do.

Hebrew? Got Hebrew 10 minutes a day! Doing Language skills classes but learning Hebrew via the Chumash is really strange. I think we’re going over grammar soon.

Converting? Rabbi says we should talk when I get back but the outlook is good that after Israel, I will be able to convert. The question is where? In the synagogue and Israel won’t accept it. Random rabbi in the middle of nowhere would be more “kosher” according to Israel but how long would that take? It’s already been a year….

Doctors? I’m still on the anti-arthritis meds and sleeping aids but I feel a little better mostly mentally, sometimes physically sporadically. The pain is, however, not gone and I’ve been told that yoga is IDOL WORSHIP according to Orthodox Judaism. I have to find SOME sort of gym. I have a yoga DVD and a balance ball DVD but I left my adapter for my DVD player at home and this laptop doesn’t belong to me and it’s awfully slow and heavy to lug from room to room to exercise and use the internet.

The good news…I saw some Mexican Jews with kippas! They were walking behind me and talking in Spanish. Wow. Hooray! I felt like I fit in somewhere.

I love Israel. I love Jerusalem but I feel like I don’t fit and read all of the above. I’m not altogether Jewish at all so I don’t fit in the non-Jewish world or the Jewish world (some of which only thinks I’m converting for Jewish boys). I don’t speak Hebrew. I don’t even understand it. I’m disabled so I can’t take out my own garbage and I cut myself cutting potatos (so painful).

A naturopath has been suggested but it costs money and I have no money. Really. My ATM card is in the states. I have no money here at all. Talk about living day by day. I’m trying to stay positive because that seems to help dealing with the pain and hey, I might be Jewish this year. Still….